Ruby, as I was reading your words, I felt truly moved. You are a wonderful person, my friend. It's heartening to hear that you survived, but it's painful to know you wished otherwise. Chin up, my friend. Live for those who love you, and make others happy. At the right time, the right person will appear, seemingly out of nowhere, and you won't need to fake anything. Sending you my best wishes. Smile. 😊🌹